First and foremost, I am really grateful to have friends who care.

So a BIG heartfelt "thank-you" to you lovables! Life has no doubt been better after hearing your encouragements, and I know it is equally heartfelt. You guys really brightened up my day! (:

I am gradually on the road of "recovery", and mentally rather prepared to face whatever comes my way. It is tough to break the news to my parents and with my dad's unwell, it just makes things harder. I promised myself to tell them by the end of this week.

I guess this matter has been a blessing in disguise, I am now more immensed into prayers and sermons. I seek comfort in verses I read from the devotional guide. I may not be spiritually very strong, but I am taking baby steps to attain the closeness I want to have with my LORD! (:

This maybe be "mushy"... but thanks for being around, offering me the support and care when I needed most, more so when we hardly have time to meet up.

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For now, I have been working 3 days a week, part-time @ citylink. It has been pretty ok. I will be leaving for Australia soon for a holiday with my family. No doubt I am looking forward to it, but the "guilt" tugs me more, when I know silently that this trip is a reward not a mere vacation. (you get what I mean?)

Nonetheless, I will enjoy. (:
(p.s. You guys want anything? I will gladly get it for ya.)

Till then, take care loads, stay healthy and God Bless! (:

-fulvie-

Last week has been really really difficult. Life hasn't been easy.
I teared... for 2 nights, reflecting on how I am going to disappoint my parents who love me so much, how I will cause them to spend a larger sum on my education... I tried, I really did try to want to do my best, but... it did not turn out the way I wanted it to be.

My gut is very strong, I am going to fail my papers...

I dare not face up to my parents, the mere mention of my exams, I will switch topic, that is how I have been living for the past week. I am sandwiched, with literally no one to turn to. I lied about my puffy eyes, I put on the fake happy "mask", but deep down I am really at my wit's end. Every free moment I have, are occupied with flashes of my result slip.... accompanied with a FAIL. I am a failure rings deep in my mind. I have been praying about it, casting my troubles and worries upon the Lord, but I know I reap what I sow, and I pray for my Lord to be my guiding light and to prepare a path for me with everything done to be given glory to my most highest Lord. I know my Lord never fails. (:

Last Sunday's sermon highlight was God is GREATER than all my troubles and worries and torture, I felt instantly better after pastor made this statement, it really lifted me up. it really did.

With faith I put whatever happens in my Lord's hands, I will commit everything to Him, for He is the maker of miracles and the judge of all men. His grace and mercy has been upon me, in Him I have nothing to fear...

In the meantime, I am seeking for an opportunity to speak to my parents about it. Honestly, I am trying to avoid this topic, but I know I have to speak to them about it and I will.... when I am ready.

Dear friends, please pray for me. This has been really hard for me, all I need is a little "Are you okay?" from you - more than enough to comfort me...

thank you very much (:

- God bless -

Me :D
08 August
House of the LORD
still Financially strained and dependent

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